sunny side o' the street, but bring your umbrella

It's funny, I am naturally a "sunny" personality.

You'd never know it to read what I've entered into this thus far piece of life living bliss, but I do not lie when I tell you that "Miss Mary Sunshine" was a moniker hung upon my being some years back by a before her time "gothette" who shall herein go unnamed... but I will say this, the years have dimmed my unusually sunny disposition, as have those who have stared me down, working to diminish my zest for life, and I know you'll say "don't give them the power" but y'know I am only human, and actually a sensitive one, the degree I'll leave for you to decide.

Tonight, through a film, I met a kindred spirit, at least as Meryl Streep has presented her, me and Ms. Childs have alot in common... for one thing her love of food, is rather like my love of, well, those I love. My Rrrrrrllll, my boyzes... and those many others for whom I would get what I call my "fits" or my "must see" moments, i.e. when my sister was small and therefore had no real "life" of her own, I could call on her at my mother's house at will and on whim.... I would suddenly realize that I missed her terribly and I would call my mother and say "I am having a 'sisa fit, can I come take her to Chucky Cheese for the afternoon?" rarely would my mum say "no" and so the "need" to see my wee sister would be satisfied. But, I relish time with those I love exactly the way Julia seems to have. And, when they break my heart, I am inconsolable.

Still, I love people and those I love best, I remain fascinated by.